Do you ever just wake up one day and think who am I? And what do I want from life? I feel like I go through phases in life where I am so certain with what I want to do and where I want to go. Then one little thing can just happen where I question everything and my whole existence. It irritates me. I just feel like why can’t we live for now instead of living for the future? The pressure is real!! When it comes to me and where I see myself in life I know a few things
1. I will never settle 2. I am here to help people 3. I know I will be successful because I just won’t stop until I am. I don’t think anyone really knows what they want to do, I guess we all say I want to help people but the question is how can I help people by doing what I love and by making a living from it? I am 23 and I feel like I have not achieved anything in my life (Although I know that is a lie) but I put so much pressure on myself because society makes you feel like you should at least achieved something e.g. graduating from university which I have yet to do and Lord knows if I ever will. But you feel this sense of failure because you have not achieved what everyone else has. But I know I am being harsh on myself. I am actually proud that I have kept my job going for 2 years now and I know it sounds like a small achievement but I never wanted to work a 9 to 5 and I was so afraid of working with people (What? You scream! Yes people) If you suffer from anxiety then you will know how hard it is to do something you want to but fear everything and you overthink things a million times in your mind. I was so afraid to get a job but I did it and that was due to circumstances so I felt like I did not have a choice. But back to the topic, I wake up everyday like what do I want to do so far I know I love writing on my blog. I feel a sense of relief and happiness so maybe this is what I should be doing. But one thing I do know is that I always see the positive in everything, I maybe confused right now but I am happy because 1. I made the choice to do what I want and 2. Life is never that bad there is always a way out. If you told me that 4 years ago I would have said you’re lying. So for those of you that get me and are confused like me do not panic. Find one thing you love doing mine at the moment is blogging, stick to it and smile through the hard times and do not be
to hard on yourself. Liberate yourself and do something that makes you happy without the thought of someone judging you.